There's a very difficult space within relationships-
A dark, unnavigatable expanse between the boundaries of two individual beings.
It's a space where future aims give way to present realities-
A Place where fears give way to freedoms,
Only to melt back into uncertainty.
It's a room,
Housed within a hallway-
In an obscure, abandoned building.
Where we sit-
And Listen,
And absorb,
The intangibility of a shared love.
And in this darkness,
You feel both confined and limitless.
Bound, but only by your freedom.
And so you sit and breath and feel your insides pour out in front of you.
Your past and future souls move fluidly outside of you-
To rest exposed and raw at the feet of your partner.
You slip upwards, towards the ceiling
And look down on the shell of yourself-
Sitting there, limp and empty but brimming with the overpowering energy
Still flowing through it.
And I meet you here-
Up in the sky above ourselves.
I hold your hand and feel your barriers,
Melt into me.
Our bodies touch-
You pull mine into yours,
And the junction of the two, begin to breed a warmth that swells into the rest of us,
Inflating every crevice of our beings.
I ask you, "why?"
You simply smile, and fall back.
But your energy doesn't exit with you,
It stays with me forever,
This moment, is ours always
Despite that I no longer hold it.
There's a very difficult space within a relationship
Where both prejudice and promise dance together before you,
In a challenge for your attention-
In a crusade for your sanity.
Ultimately, you lean right into the battle.
You accept that love and pain-
Freedom and sacrifice-
Union and abandonment-
They're ALL bound to each other as inseparable dichotomies of this existence.
They all dwell inside,
Outside,
And all around each other,
In a coexistence that can't be avoided, or feared, or denied.
You shut your eyes and accept that as you grab for one,
You will invite them all.
And so you smile.
You respect the reality of this range of feelings.
And you release the notion,
That you can control the insatiable appetite of life's energy,
To let these emotions rage.
They will always flow forward
Filling the void of our difficult space
Sweeping you onward-
As a piece of drift wood stuck in the current,
With the promise of peace that can only come,
From your complete surrender into it.
You trust in a light,
That can only be found after complete darkness.
You let go, submerge yourself -
And let life carry you on.
